Reconsidering the pale lady, part II

Okay, so I've decided what to do with the Castle Anthrax bit. Actually, I'd decided yesterday, I just didn't want to admit it because it means I have to kills some darlings and do some work. A lot of work, actually. I'm going to scrap the lady/Gawaine bits and try again. She should not be powerless. Everyone in this story is more powerful than Gawaine, that's the whole point.

Perhaps she can still be sympathetic, though she has power over him. What does it say about me if I can't make a powerful and sympathetic female character, after all? (Trying to think of an example to redeem myself -- help!)

So here, making its only public appearance, is the pale lady as weak and lovely. One of the things that might be coming back are the other kisses. If I can manage to keep it suitable for eight year olds.

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So Gawaine stayed in the castle
To prepare his heart and mind
He slept in light, and dreamed of axes,
He slept in dark, and dreamed of signs

As Gawaine lay sleeping the first morning
In feathers soft as spiderweb
Through the hangings slipped the lady
And sat down by him on the bed

He blinked awake to see her shining
Clear and cold as winter stars
He thought perhaps he was still dreaming
And whispered: Tell me what you are

Tell me what you are, my lady,
For you cannot be all that you seem
Too pure, too bright to be human
I think I'm in a land of dreams

But the lady said: You are not dreaming
I'm not a vision, not a ghost
But I am alone, and I am lonely
And I lack what I want most

And that is love -- for all his booming
My lord is empty as a drum
He loves the hunt, he doesn't love me
Truly I am glad you've come

Gawaine's heart was moved in sorrow
He sat up shivering in the chill
Bone cold and white seemed that strange palace
Blue fire burned in every grill

Outside the shimmering valley drifted
Bright and soft as any May
Across the warm air, horns came wafting
As Red Beard hunted for his prey

He said, I am drawn towards you
For you caught me when I fell
You have given me this haven
I am under your soft spell

But you must know I cannot love you
I am a guest here in your hall
And I'm about to die for honour
Here at the end, how can I fall?

And riding home came Barbarossa
With his hawk and dancing hounds
A white stag slung across his shoulders
With seven points its head was crowned

See, young guest, I've had good hunting
Red Beard shouted, full of cheer
I've brought you meat, I've brought you leather
For what do I trade this deer?

And Gawaine said: You are no richer
For I cannot give you what I've won
A good deep sleep, a good day's company
And the strength to carry on

Perhaps tomorrow you'll do better
Said Barbarossa, with a smile
And with meat and cheerful talking
The evening passed by in a whirl

In morning Gawaine was pacing
The long sleep out of every limb
Suddenly he heard a rustle
The lady came to walk with him

She moved like the moon in ice-clouds
She moved like the dawn through frost
She looked so lovely and so lonely
Gawaine felt his heart was lost

Gawaine, will you take me with you?
The lady asked, as stiff as stone
If you love me, but a little
You will not leave me here alone

How can you ask me if I love you
Gawaine said, his face aflame
When you shine like stars in water
And are as gentle as the rain

But in this world, I cannot love you
There's a promise I must keep
Tomorrow I must make my journey
Under the earth I soon will sleep.

And riding home came Barbarossa
with his great spear bright with gore
His big roan stallion came home prancing
Behind his horse, he dragged a boar

See, Gawaine, what I have brought you
How I fought while you were asleep
And what did you win today to trade me?
What have you found here in my keep?

And Gawaine said: I have won nothing --
Or nothing I can give away
My feet are steady, my arm is limbered
I've found the heart to find my way

Perhaps tomorrow, said Lord Red Beard
But let us pass this night in mirth
For tomorrow evening you must leave us
Tomorrow's your last day on earth

In the morning as Gawaine was sitting
with his sword across his knee
into his chamber came the lady
and she was weeping grievously

Gawaine put down his sword and whetstone
and knelt there at the lady's side
And said, Lady, queen of snow banks
tell me, please -- why do you cry?

I know today you plan to leave me
the lady said, and dried her tears
I know that you will go and leave me
Here alone, through lonely years

Lady, I must, the young man answered
My life is promised to the Knight
Perhaps my ghost can come and stay here
And offer you a little light

You need not die, whispered the lady
With her cold hand, she clasped his arm
You see this belt that I am wearing --
It would save you from all harm

This belt, said Gawaine, and he touched it
A white silk sash embroidered over
With beasts and birds, with runes and signs
It did not seem a thing of power

This sash could save me? said Sir Gawaine
His heart was fluttering in his chest
How can such a small thing save me --
I beg you, Lady, do not jest.

I do not jest with you, Sir Gawaine,
This belt is woven with a spell
No axe or sword or knife will cut you
If you wear it knotted well

This sash was woven by my mother
And she was a mighty witch
It has been my family keepsake
But I would trade it for a kiss

Equinox, I do not love you
Gawaine said, and tucked his chin
But if you ask it, I will kiss you
For you have given me hope again

The lady took the belt and tied it
Round his waist with murmured wish
So from her hands, he had his hope, then
And from
her lips he had his kiss

And riding home came Barbarosa
His stallion shaking harness bells
He waved to Gawaine through the window
A fox across his saddle prow

See Gawaine, I've had good hunting
While you played checkers with my wife
What windfall did you earn to give me
In your day of toil and strife?

So Gawaine got up and went to greet him
His surcoat covering up the belt
And said, My lord, I've won a treasure,
A fine trade for that fox's pelt

For your lady grants me riches
greater than a fleet of ships

And with those words Gawaine stood tiptoe
And kissed the lord square on the lips

Red Beard laughed, and Red Beard sputtered
And he clasped Gawaine by the hand
You are a knight as fine and honest
As I have met in any land

The knotted sash around him twisted
As Gawaine heard these words of praise
For he had lied to keep that sash
His first hope in a year of days

While death seemed certain, he was certain
Sad, but steeled to play his part
The sash had sent his courage reeling
It was hope that broke his heart

2 Comments

Katy said:

You have strong, sympathetic women in your bible poems. Leah etc.

Pat said:

Strong, sympathetic—how about Galadriel?

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